Contamination OCD - Ella loses control at school..

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  • Ella's been making good progress with controlling her OCD. It hasn't been easy being in high school with this illness - but it's just about to get even harder when the most popular girl accidentally gets involved. Thanks for watching our video! In case anyone wants to see the script, it's right here for you: SCRIPT Most people at my school look forward to lunchtime, but it's the scariest time of day for me. Luckily, we manage to avoid the rush. My best friend, Sophie, and I sit at a small table near the edge of the food hall. I watch as more students flood in and start queueing up to get their lunch. Some of them are messing around, pushing each other and laughing. Even Jennifer, the most popular girl in school who actually hates me, is in the queue just giggling and flirting with all the boys. I've started bringing my lunch from home instead. "Ella?" Sophie breaks my train of thought. "I asked you how the maths paper went…" That morning we were given a practice maths test. The pressure is on for our real exams which are taking place in a few months. "Could have been better, I'm so behind." "Ah don't worry! There's still time to catch up. You're doing great being back here!" Sophie tries to reassure me. She's right. I have been doing much better recently, this time last year I couldn't have made it into school at all. I notice Jennifer and her friends sit down at a table close to ours. I shift in my seat. Those girls make me feel so uncomfortable; they just think I'm a weirdo. They start talking loudly about the maths paper and we can't help but overhear. "I should have done well! I was going totally crazy in there, seriously OCD, checking everything." Jennifer's sharp voice rings in my ears, she's laughing. I feel frozen, stuck to my chair. Sophie's concerned eyes meet mine. "It's okay!" I lie, speaking quietly so that only Sophie will hear. "I just need to get out of here for a minute." I hurry out of the hall. All of a sudden everything seems so overwhelming, there are too many people talking and eating. I silently pray that the bathroom is empty. Fortunately, there's no one else around. I stare at myself in the mirror, I'm trembling. I have contamination OCD. Feelings from last year come rushing back; I'm terrified of getting ill. I wring my hands, they must be dirty already. Mentally I start listing everything that I've touched throughout the morning, so many germs. I've probably also touched my hair, clothes, maybe even my face. By now, I'm dirty all over - contaminated. I pull a paper towel from the dispenser, and discard it. Maybe somebody touched that one. I take another, and use it to turn on the tap. I start washing my hands, scrubbing quite hard. I feel sick which only scares me more, even though logically I know that nausea is a daily side effect of my medication. I try to breath. What am I doing? It's so frustrating. This all started when I was around 11 or 12. Nothing traumatic happened; the doctors eventually said that my OCD was triggered by puberty, a chemical imbalance in my brain. At first it wasn't a big deal, people just thought I was odd. I liked things to be a certain way. I started showering before and after school, but I was still functioning fairly normally. Around my 14th birthday it started getting worse. I would spend hours washing myself. My mum caught me about to take bleach into the shower, that’s when we went to the doctor. But I am better now, I'm coping. I don't know why Jennifer's words are throwing me off like this. People say that kind of thing all the time - it's just a silly phrase. I spend a few more moments composing myself and finally turn off the tap. No paper towel. I better go and find Sophie, she's probably worried. I walk out of the bathroom and turn back towards the food hall. Suddenly, someone bumps into me, trying to grab me to avoid falling. Horror courses through me. A girl is touching me, pulling at my clothes. I scream and stumble backwards, recoiling. The girl falls to her knees. I stare open-mouthed, mortified. It's Jennifer. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry" I stammer. But, I'm already retreating back into the bathroom. I start desperately ripping off my jumper. Jennifer follows me, her face threatening. My jumper has fallen to the floor and I'm frantically washing my hands again. Jennifer stares at me as though I've completely lost my mind. Oh god, maybe I have. "What the hell is wrong with you? I'm not diseased or anything you freak." Her voice is hard and cruel. Tears are sliding down my face. I want to explain that I can’t help it; it's like a reflex for me to avoid human contact. But, I can't. "I'm sorry" I sob again.
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  • mental illness ocd teen dramas teen obsessivecompulsivedisorder friendship meangirl highschool 

Yorum Sayısı: 2881

  • hindimass itkeepskyls
    hindimass itkeepskyls 1 gün önce

    one of my peers I go to autism therapy
    has ocd
    he barely smiles

  • Melvyn Crdns
    Melvyn Crdns 4 gün önce

    You know some germs are good and the human body can handle some germs but should know our body's are a ecosystems for germs

  • Meggie Suchi
    Meggie Suchi 5 gün önce

    My Friend have OCD

  • Nenee Elliot
    Nenee Elliot 6 gün önce

    This is so relatable

  • Nenee Elliot
    Nenee Elliot 6 gün önce

    I'm gonna go wash my hands right now!

  • Farhaj Anwar
    Farhaj Anwar 1 hafta önce

    I also have ocd.I feel the same thing whenever i touch something i get in my mind that someone touched it.And i just want to wash my hands then...
    I just cant do anything... i hate washing my hands over and over again..... 😭😭😪😪

  • Dagger Eyes
    Dagger Eyes 1 hafta önce

    I don’t think I have a ocd. I wash my hands all the time like everyday none stop. If I got to school I wash my hands if I touch someone, if I touch doors, chairs. At home I do the same, I use a cloth to open my doors at home and to turn off the lights. Sometimes if I don’t wash my hands good enough I will start to feel like bugs are crawling underneath my skin. But idk that’s just me

  • AmoNati0n
    AmoNati0n 1 hafta önce

    Ocd wasn't even a thing like some years ago. What's wrong with this generation

  • iADLY
    iADLY 1 hafta önce

    I have OCD. It triggers whenever I make some kind of mistake. I always think that my friend is way better than me, and that I don't deserve to know her.

  • Can we get to 1000 subs from just comments?

    So, i guess I’m like the only person in the comments without OCD

  • Gacha Riva
    Gacha Riva 1 hafta önce

    Jeez girl you’re crazy stupid

  • Fading Jaybird
    Fading Jaybird 1 hafta önce

    I don't know what OCD is

  • Flaming hurricane3
    Flaming hurricane3 1 hafta önce

    Germaphobe

  • Dank Sanchez
    Dank Sanchez 1 hafta önce

    You have pointy boobs

  • Catsoon :3
    Catsoon :3 1 hafta önce

    Im sorry but....



    M A T H S!

  • Catelynn Perkins
    Catelynn Perkins 2 hafta önce

    I have insiety and depression

  • Osiris St Fleur
    Osiris St Fleur 2 hafta önce

    FREAKING BLEACH...IN THE SHOWER...OCD SUCKS

  • Loren Leshone
    Loren Leshone 2 hafta önce

    I have ocd but a different type

  • Awkward ユニコーン
    Awkward ユニコーン 2 hafta önce

    The one thing that gives me OCD is school tbh

  • Milkyway AJPW
    Milkyway AJPW 2 hafta önce

    :(

  • Crystal Smith
    Crystal Smith 3 hafta önce

    I have ocd but. Not this Bad!

  • Meadow Shadow
    Meadow Shadow 3 hafta önce

    I have OCD but not as bad

  • De Ravia
    De Ravia 3 hafta önce

    I have guiltiness OCD

  • Alcat Smore
    Alcat Smore 3 hafta önce

    Am. The only one here that doesn't have ocd or am I the only one who doesn't lie






    If you have OCD no offence just talking to people who are faking it

  • Cynthia lopez
    Cynthia lopez 3 hafta önce

    No your not ocd your Germer phobic

  • Potato.Net. Wierd Potato Fwends.

    I think I've got ocd ,
    I am very organised but thats not all I tap stuff and cough purposely and close doors 6 times each.

  • Марио Петров
    Марио Петров 3 hafta önce

    I think I also have OCD but fortunately it's not that bad

  • Hannah Hougaard Bagge
    Hannah Hougaard Bagge 3 hafta önce

    ive got a little OCD not so it an be that dangerus buti sometimes do wierd stuff without ny reason like if i go out of a room sometimes i turn of the light and then turn them again like maybe just 2 or 3 but its not that often i do OCD stuff often but not something that looks suspicious but i still do it no one notice it

  • finnshere
    finnshere 3 hafta önce

    My ex told me that he is an ocd, because he likes to arrange stuff in a certain way, yeah... that’s a lie. What kind of ocd who don’t change his bed sheet in 2 years, forgot to flush and toss everything on the floor.

  • Ellajogie09 x
    Ellajogie09 x 3 hafta önce

    My name is ella

  • ShayDaSavage
    ShayDaSavage 3 hafta önce

    OR she has a phobia for people touching her.

  • Alexandra Havens
    Alexandra Havens 3 hafta önce

    Omg that's crazy my friends name is ella and she has OCD

  • AsmrEats
    AsmrEats 3 hafta önce

    I have ocd I hate it.i can't stand school because of the crowds and it gives me hi axiety and now I'm homeschooled and want everything perfect and my way and it affects me because no one wants to hang out anymore

  • FelixzVEVO
    FelixzVEVO 3 hafta önce

    I dont have OCD but i always check things more times, But nothing more though

  • Maggie Flips
    Maggie Flips 3 hafta önce

    I have ocd

  • Sweet sugar gloss ASMR
    Sweet sugar gloss ASMR 4 hafta önce

    Jennifer’s a bishhhh

  • Phillip Schuyler Hamilton

    YOU SURE ITS FINE?

  • Phillip Schuyler Hamilton

    WHY SHE HATE YA!

  • TJ The Entertainer
    TJ The Entertainer 4 hafta önce

    Poor thing

  • Trans Meme
    Trans Meme 4 hafta önce

    i know two people who say they have ocd. even tho they only mention their "ocd" when i point out something out of place! they don't say anything about it unless they're reminded.. i dont believe them so i just tell them "are you sure? in most cases its just perfectionism." i dont know if I just dont trust them or if i am actually right? i dont know exactly what ocd means, but i believe its along the lines of "obsessive compulsive disorder"? please let me know^^